sick of it, i hate babblings

man, class almost starts. the pressure is getting higher day by day. today my bro just got back from KL. fuh. im actually very nervous bout my second semester. actually i felt something nowadays. yeah, i have to accept the fact that our life is getting tougher. i wonder when's the climax of it? dude, sometimes i m really fed up with babbling everywhere. not sometimes, but actually everytime! actually that makes me sick. babbling is like pain in a butt. actually those babbling are the one of the reasons why the pressure of life is getting higher and higher.

and i also wonder one thing. those babblings. does it really makes people improve? i dont thnk so. babbling and rude words are very dangerous. we might hold a grudge out of it. n ths thng is very typical for malaysian parents. damn. seriously i cant stand it. sometimes even when we're totally innocent, we might be the VICTIM of ths babbling thngy.

i hate especially when these babblings are done in front of my friends. damn, im very ashamed of it and sometimes i thnk my parents' babbling are one of the reason my friends dont want to hang out in my crib. this is because they have become the babbling's victim!! shit im sick of it man! ok thre was 1 day last time, before i created my blog. my car was stolen. yeah it's very sad. but we have to move on. instead of struggling to find the car and stay connected with the police, my mum tried somethng different. somethng traditional and super-stitious and lessen the modern ways. and then she still mourns like hell. man, yeah, we have to depend on god's will! but, we cant simply count 100% on them, n im sure god also asks us to struggle. 5 days after the incident, i have invited some frens of mine to come over and sleep over. and yeah we didnt sleep. and suddenly my mum said "hey, ure not supposed to have fun like this.. bla bla bla...!". and i was like, what the heck, we're not having fun. we were just talking and sometimes thre are jokes made by my frens, and we laughed. and then she scolded us for tht thng. shit. and i wondered. WHY? num 1, we didnt disturb her because our laughings was not loud enough for her to hear it from her room. damn. wud's wrong with me. and there she goes babbling like hell, on and on. plus, she was suddenly out of topic, babbling and babbling again, firstly about the cars, then she babbled about about studies.. and then attitudes.. and then.. ah.. c'mon. i can thnk of tht myself. man plz dont do it in front of my guys! and while she's babbling, altho i heard it with good manners without giving any bad expression, she suddenly cried in front of me and my frens! shit.. i was like, man i was innocent, wud's wrong wif me. i cant sleep on the nite. wud's the big deal? im was very ashamed man. i didnt even do something wrong. damn. luckily my frens understood. but man, life goes on, and ure not supposed to mourn tht way. actually we have to be grateful because instead of worse stuffs like death, god tested us by only makin the car stolen. damn. ths babbling starts to drag my life from up to the lowest. damn.

n here i am listening the babbling everyday. the babblings are getting worse day by day. and i really cant stand tht! shit. man, instead of babbling, human beings can be advised in better ways. such as, talking in the best manners and motivations. not by being rude, hurting people with those "pain-in-the-butt" sentences, and giving shames to people. such thngs will create grudges among us. so better avoid it. we dont know what might happen in the future. yeah, malay sayings "kerana mulut badan boleh binasa". it means, because of our sayings, we might get hurt like hell. so watch your words. now i know why some adults are "derhaka" towards their parents. maybe because they held a grudge for their parents' babbling. so hereby, i thnk, babbling can give the worst effect to children and urself. avoid it! we may do it once in a while. but dont do it as a routine. damn.... for me babbling is not a symbol of one's love or concern to another. but it's just a negative way to expressing ur probs. plus, if u babble especially in a crowd, ure not only giving shames to the ones whch u babbled but, the shame also goes to urself. THANK U! so stop babbling.

P/S: i never wish to be "anak derhaka" and im trying to clear those grudges about those babblings. :)